boys are so much trouble. i don't understand why they have to be so adorable at the same time. and once you fall in love, no matter how hard you try, you will compare everyone who comes into your life after that to them. i wish i could look someone in the eyes and tell them that i know what i'm doing, but i'm not one for lying. i'm a junior in high school and i have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life. i'm tired of being around people who only judge you. i'm trying every day to be the best christian i can be and it's one of the hardest things i've ever done. i find myself praying all the time just to get through the school day. all the things that say "you have to kiss a lot of toads before you find your prince", well i don't think those people lived through high school. i haven't dated a lot of guys in high school. i've dated two, to be exact. but two weeks ago i was interested in one guy, now i like his best friend. can someone tell me how that's supposed to work? cause i have no idea. well, i guess that's all until i get this mess figured out. even though it's not a mess. and i pretty much know what i wanna do. oh well.