boys are so much trouble. i don't understand why they have to be so adorable at the same time. and once you fall in love, no matter how hard you try, you will compare everyone who comes into your life after that to them. i wish i could look someone in the eyes and tell them that i know what i'm doing, but i'm not one for lying. i'm a junior in high school and i have no idea what i want to do with the rest of my life. i'm tired of being around people who only judge you. i'm trying every day to be the best christian i can be and it's one of the hardest things i've ever done. i find myself praying all the time just to get through the school day. all the things that say "you have to kiss a lot of toads before you find your prince", well i don't think those people lived through high school. i haven't dated a lot of guys in high school. i've dated two, to be exact. but two weeks ago i was interested in one guy, now i like his best friend. can someone tell me how that's supposed to work? cause i have no idea. well, i guess that's all until i get this mess figured out. even though it's not a mess. and i pretty much know what i wanna do. oh well.

synamon

it all started at the beach. my dog jumped out of the car and pretty much broke her elbow. after that she just started falling apart. i realize she's 11 which is like 85 in people years but i just never thought about her actually dying. she got to the point where she couldn't walk on her own and she wouldn't eat or drink anything. she had a seizure tonight and it was something i'll never be able to unsee. tonight is the worse night of my life. i've had her since i was five and she was the first pet i ever had. i know it's not fair to make her hold on when she's miserable but i'm not ready to let go. my parents are in winston at a vet with her  right now and i'm pretty positive my dog won't be coming back with them. seeing my father cry is one of the saddest things i've ever seen. kirklin and liz are helping me through this. i couldn't ask for better friends. i didn't know what else to do other than blog. i love my dog more than anything.

i forgot!

i totally forgot about one thing in my last post. so apparently there's these two girls who hate my guts. never done anything to either of them. AND i've never even talked to one of them! like really, if you're gonna hate me at least have a good reason. it doesn't really bother me, but it's just a little uncalled for. oh wellll, now i'm done :)

lalalalaa

i haven't blogged in about a million years, i always forget! the new season of degrassi has startedddd, and i love it :D i saw hp7 part 2 on monday and it was FANTASTIC! but it's also a little sad because now it's really over :( cheerleading starts in four days, but hopefully i'll get to miss the first two practices cause i got invited to the beach <3 mommy bought me a new bathing suit today, she's so nice :) kirklin and i will have been dating for eleven months in nine days <333 that means in a month it'll be ONE YEAR! :D this summer has been the most uneventful one of my life. i can't wait til i can drive, good grief. i drove kirklin's car yesterday, i was such a good driver ;) hehehe hmmm i don't know what i wanna talk about. i guess this is it for probably another million years <3 byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

first

first time blogging in a little over forever. i guess i haven't had that much to talk about. finally got to see kirklin after he'd been in new york for about a week today :) i missed him lots! i met his adorable little cousin today too. he's a spaz. i hope everybody's summer is going good so far! i go to the beach in eleven days :) SO EXCITED. i'm so glad school's done for a while. i think if i had to go one more day this year my brain would've exploded. sometimes i read people's tweets and wish that i knew who they were talking abouuut. i have to carhop at sonic tomorrow, i'm actually kind of excited. kind of. i'm sad brookie and i aren't on the same squad anymore :( til basketball!!! :D ahhh, well i guess i've rambled enough. bed time. night night :)

oh haaai

i haven't blogged in about ten million years. i'm super excited that it's the weekend. yesterday was another baseball game, it was lovely :) we beat west fo for the third time? that's riiiight. mother's day weeeekend - going to raleigh later to visit tay tay! oh and i made the squad again :D i have to do something to my hair now..momma's orders. hasta la bye bye <3

yayyyy saturday

I went with Kirklin and his family to some fundraiser breakfast this morning. It was great :) seeing him first thing in the morning really gets my day off to a good start. I've already finished half of my homework too. Honestly when weekends are this good I never want Monday to come. I get to watch baseball soon too! How much better could it get? Kirk and I watched bring it on - in it to win it. After like the second one, they got really crappy. But i still like all the cool stuff they do. I got my prom dress! YAAY! Today's been so good. :D




i want a picture like this.